Help

Lord, help me to not be such a HUGE girl all the time. Help me to act, and think, and feel like a grown-up. I feel like I can't do anything right. I'm discouraged and feel alone. I get my feelings hurt so easily and it is frustrating. But Lord, could you also help people to understand me a little better?? Let them see things like I do once in a while, because right now I feel like I am the only one who see's life my way. Everyone else is at a different speed and on a different track. Could you give me some company because I'd really like to have some companionship in this boat. Help me not to obsess. But help me to keep heart. Because Lord, I'm failing miserably. Help me to be who YOU want me to be. I just want to feel like I'm doing something right, or that I'm in the right place. I guess all I'm really just asking is: HELP??

I see your blue eyes Everytime I close mine You make it hard to see Where I belong to When I'm not around you

Kev has been gone for almost 10 days now. Watching him leave was the hardest part. I've actually been doing surprisingly well. Well except for when I stay up too late, or I think about how much I ache to see him or to be in his arms....or just to be NEAR him even.....sometimes just when I breathe. In those moments all I can do is pray. Because I promised that whenever I thought about him or started to miss him I had to pray for him. And in those praying moments, my last thoughts to Jesus usually conclude with a "And PLEASE Lord, let him hurry up and marry me already. Amen." 10 days down....18 to go.